Life and Love
I don’t talk about my relationship much online because I don’t really believe in telling everyone your personal business every 5 minutes. But. Sometimes I just want to acknowledge that I have the best partner ever, and feel so loved, supported, and understood, it’s beautiful.
Life sure hits different when you have an emotionally and mentally mature, loving, supportive, mentally healthy partner who is a fantastic communicator. Who is reliable and follows through on every.single.thing they say to you. Who loves and supports and enjoys you even on days when you’re not 100% perfectly perfect in every single way. Who takes the time to see, understand, and celebrate you even when you don’t feel like celebrating yourself. Who shares the same views and ideas about the world. Who is willing to hear new information and learn new things on a daily basis. Who wants to learn and grow WITH me so we can both be the best versions of ourselves together.
I didn’t find that person til I was 45. A year and a half later, I can hardly believe that I can trust a man this much and ACTUALLY TRUST HIM THIS MUCH, it’s astounding. I didn’t believe this was actually a thing that people could really experience outside of a book or a Disney fairy tale or a movie. I was pretty dang jaded. I felt like I had to protect myself fiercely at all costs due to past experiences. I didn’t want anyone near me. I preferred peace and being left alone.
To be fair, I i didn’t learn to trust him that quickly. I’ve actually known him since 2013. He joined the board of directors for an organization that I had helped found and was on the board for. It didn’t happen overnight, or in just the year and a half of dating. Trust was established in a professional setting first, and he was never a “stranger” at any time. So please don’t misunderstand me and think that I’m advocating for just trusting any rando off the street after 18 months. This is not that. Be safe out there, friends!!!!
But with that disclaimer being said, it’s amazing to feel “soft” again. I hadn’t relaxed and let my guard down around someone and trusted everything they say to me without questioning it in SO LONG. It’s nice to BELIEVE someone and know that you’re not being lied to and gaslit constantly. It’s nice to have an actual partner for the first time in my life.
Now if only he didn’t live 2.5 hours away from me. We’re fixing that in the spring though!
(Note from the future, we didn’t find his dream house in my area until July 2018. But he finally found his house and we are still moving stuff up here now.)
